Saying goodbye.

Today I had to say goodbye to a friend. She's more than a friend. She's like a sister to me. my little Anna banana. I've never been too good with the goodbyes. Usually it's been me who is leaving, and instead of trying to find the words to say goodbye I try and sneak away without having to face the floods of tears ready to erupt. 

It's always been harder for me to get close to girls than guys. I don't really know what it is.. It's the first time since college that I've had sort of a solid group of girlfriends to go out with and share stories and giggles and Anna was my number one girl. Still is, but not seeing her every day is gonna break my heart. We shared the same sense of humor, the endless Friends references and a sense of belonging like kindred spirits. This last week we spent as much time together as possible, but it's never enough. We've only known each other for a short while, but we just clicked immediately. And the time you spend with people you love is never enough.  

I feel like all I've done these couple of months leading up to christmas is saying good bye. One after another that group of girls I've spent so many wonderful laughter filled  nights with are bidding their farewells and the group is no more.  

I feel like I'm losing my safety net and have to take to the trapeze all by myself now and if I fall there's no one to catch me. 

Oh sod it.

I'm not saying good bye. I'm saying I love you and I'll see you. Maybe not as much as I want to, but visit we will. Poxy sweden is so lucky!  I love you baby girl, so very much. It hurts to see you go, but I'm looking forward to seeing you again and again. So no more goodbyes. 

A whole big reunion is on the planning, trust me!